
It was planned, today was. There were people coming this afternoon to insulate my loft; and yet, I did have to go into town; and yet, I really did want to scoot through the play and send it off.
So, I planned it. I was up, I had drunk coffee, I had the play in my bag and the boots on my feet; I was going into town, to the Lit & Phil, where I would scan & scribble on the play till I was content. Then I would shop for coffee & mushrooms, and be home for noon for the insulators.
It wasn't just raining; it was thundering. Downpouring. Stair-rodding.
No matter. I had said; it was decided. I walked into town.
I got very, very wet.
I dripped, in the Lit & Phil. Loudly, in the Silence Room. Happily I was alone, but even so I felt guilty. And went on dripping.
And read the play, & scribbled all over it as per The Plan; and went shopping after - yes, in the rain, getting wetter - and bought coffee & mushrooms and sundry books and such, and so came home.
To find a message from the insulators, saying that their van had broken down and they weren't coming.
So I sat around wetly and worked on the play, and sent it off (God, I do love e-mail and all its attachments) just in time to open a bottle of wine and watch 'Show Boat', while Himself began his usual it's-only-two-hours-till-supper-time-and-I'm-hungry-now fussing. To which I am so inured that - to my eternal shame - when the movie was over I came straight upstairs humming "Ol' Man River" and checked my e-mail.
And found a message from my editor, about 'River of the World'. And suddenly didn't dare open it (fyi, new readers - the comparable e-mail about the previous book, 'Bridge of Dreams', led to a year of bitterness, crisis & rewrites, from which I have still not recovered financially, emotionally or professionally. And I still say she was wrong), so recovered my standing in Barry's eyes by suddenly noticing & feeding him, and then opening another bottle of wine instead.
But did at last open the e-mail - and s'okay, she gets this one. She likes it. She wants easy rewrites, sensible stuff. That I can do, and I don't even need to hate her.
So now I know what I'm doing for the rest of this month, which had been a bit of an open question until this. What I'm doing for the rest of this day is drinking more wine. I like wine.