I Aten't Ded...

[desperance]

...tho' it felt a little touch-and-go for a while there, last evening.

Well, no, I exaggerate: but for a couple of hours it was very much shall-I-go-to-hospital? Point being, there's a hospital two minutes' walk from here, with both a walk-in treatment centre and an A&E; they're going to close it to build a giant Tesco's, but at the moment it's still working, so it seems a shame to waste it while it's there. And there's this thing that happens with my asthma these days, where I wheeze and wheeze and take my meds and wheeze and wheeze and it's like the meds can't touch it, and there are two things I can do: I can panic, and go to the hospital and get serious steroids and stuff; or I can sit it out, and it usually goes away. No, it always goes away. So far. Eventually.

The first is easier one way (meds! fuss! y'know, all of that being-taken-care-of stuff), and the second is easier in other ways (staying home, not making a fuss, not spending hours or overnight in hospital). Thus far, I guess I've always picked the right one. As I did last night. I was on the inhaler every ten minutes for an hour, hour and a half, something like that; and cautiously, fractionally, it went away.

Today I am fragile and exhausted, but no worse than that. And working, kinda (better than yesterday!), though I think I might quit about now. I think I've had done enough.

Tomorrow, Birmingham. Sunday, Oxford and Henley. Home on Tuesday. I can has days off nao?

Comments

[cinderberry.livejournal.com]

You can has days off, but you can not has asthma attacks. Not allowed. *scowls at asthma attacks*.

[kazdreamer.livejournal.com]

I think it's good that you've got your asthma well-managed like this. It can be a scary thing. I only have it mild (only really plays me up when I have a cold/cough... oh, rather like *now* in fact!), but my ex-boyfriend's had it all his life. I've been scared for him before, but he insists he knows his body (well, his lungs, anyway) and as long as he doesn't panic can usually manage it on his own. Like you said.

Hope you continue to feel better. But never be afraid to take the being-taken-care-of/meds route... if necessary. :)

[beckyzoole.livejournal.com]

Hospitals are no place for a sick person. So stay well!

[athenais.livejournal.com]

Gads, that sounds awful.

I saw "River of Dreams" on the shelf at a bookstore in a mall in downtown San Francisco today. They stock very little SF/Fantasy. You made the cut!

[desperance.livejournal.com]

Yay! Thank you - we love sightings in the wild... (A book of mine was once spotted on a spinner on a North Sea ferry - loved that!)

[esmeraldus-neo.livejournal.com]

Aw, petpetpet. Hope is better soon.

[kateelliott.livejournal.com]

Take care of yourself

(not that you aren't).

My spouse had/has asthma, and I've sat through times like this, so, egads.

In our case, his asthma pretty much totally went away (or into hibernation) when we moved to Hawaii.

[desperance.livejournal.com]

Temptress. Alas, I was born too late; nobody gets sent abroad for their health any more...

[mevennen.livejournal.com]

That's horrible. I get very occasional mild asthma and that's bad enough. Do look after yourself!

[devonellington.livejournal.com]

You've earned your days off, sweetie. You work more than most ten writers do, put together.