A bad beginning
Jan. 29th, 2010 11:14 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
desperanceWell, that was no fun at all, on a scale of none to nothing.
The hurty neck/shoulder thing is generally bad first thing, before I start on the drug regime; I think I said, that it's throwing all my carefully cultivated work habits out of kilter.
Anyway: did the getting-up and so forth, fed the cats, came up to check the email. Found one that prompted a brief phone-call: two minutes, and I almost didn't make it to the end. I phone left-handed, left-eared, always; and we are talking tears of pain, people. Tried swapping the phone to my right hand but even so it was still the nastiest of nasty. Something about that position, tension on tendons through the neck and shoulders: I could have screamed, if I hadn't been on the phone. Screaming directly into people's ears is unfair, I think.
So I hung up as soon as I could, gave up on any notion of work, made coffee and started swallowing pills - but I couldn't even read, not read for twenty minutes, till the chemicals cut in. Simply sitting down and holding a book was dreadful. The pain's going right the way down my arm now, and into my fingers.
And now I am blitzed on max levels of all the painkillers I'm allowed, all taken at once which I'm not supposed to do. I have a TENS machine to hand, on loan from a generous friend, and I'm seeing the physio this afternoon about how best to use it. That better do something, because this ... is not tenable.
ETA: Also, neither of the cats came to bed all night. *grumps*
Also also, I feel dizzy now. Wanna declare a sick day, but I neeed to get these revisions done. Also there are many other things I need to do, that I'm scared of. *hides*
The hurty neck/shoulder thing is generally bad first thing, before I start on the drug regime; I think I said, that it's throwing all my carefully cultivated work habits out of kilter.
Anyway: did the getting-up and so forth, fed the cats, came up to check the email. Found one that prompted a brief phone-call: two minutes, and I almost didn't make it to the end. I phone left-handed, left-eared, always; and we are talking tears of pain, people. Tried swapping the phone to my right hand but even so it was still the nastiest of nasty. Something about that position, tension on tendons through the neck and shoulders: I could have screamed, if I hadn't been on the phone. Screaming directly into people's ears is unfair, I think.
So I hung up as soon as I could, gave up on any notion of work, made coffee and started swallowing pills - but I couldn't even read, not read for twenty minutes, till the chemicals cut in. Simply sitting down and holding a book was dreadful. The pain's going right the way down my arm now, and into my fingers.
And now I am blitzed on max levels of all the painkillers I'm allowed, all taken at once which I'm not supposed to do. I have a TENS machine to hand, on loan from a generous friend, and I'm seeing the physio this afternoon about how best to use it. That better do something, because this ... is not tenable.
ETA: Also, neither of the cats came to bed all night. *grumps*
Also also, I feel dizzy now. Wanna declare a sick day, but I neeed to get these revisions done. Also there are many other things I need to do, that I'm scared of. *hides*