Incompetence, thy name is Chaz
May. 31st, 2010 11:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
desperanceReally? I should never, ever have been allowed a house. I am not a fit and proper person; I'm incompetent to manage it.
As witness. Ever since I moved in, I've been thinking how nice it would be to sort out the bathroom, when I had the money. But ditto kitchen, ditto really all the rest of the house, there's a lot that really needs doing and a lot more I'd like to do; and I've never had the money, and it's always seemed too difficult to manage, and there was always next year, and like that...
A few months ago, I realised that the actual floor was actually rotting, around and beneath the bathtub. But I am still the king of putting things off until later; and I couldn't quite think how to manage with the bathroom being ripped out and builders in & out of the house and the cats and me trying to live here despite it all. So I had this lovely notion that I'd get a friend in as project-manager and he'd get it all done the next time I was in California, while the house was at least empty of me, and I'd just come back to a fait accompli. And the loveliest thing about that notion, besides absolving me of all that scary responsibility stuff? I could still put it off till next year, didn't have to do anything actually now...
Um. No. This morning I had a closer look beneath the bath. A sensible man would probably not even go into that bathroom with the floor in this condition, let alone take a bath in there.
So. Really truly, I need to get this fixed, right now. And really truly, this is where I freeze up and become incapable. It's the kind of real life I'm really bad at, having to get strangers to come and do things in my house. I only want to run away. And right now I have many excuses, projects and deadlines and taxes all demanding my time and attention; how can I possibly take time out to phone builders and make decisions and like that...?
Eek.
As witness. Ever since I moved in, I've been thinking how nice it would be to sort out the bathroom, when I had the money. But ditto kitchen, ditto really all the rest of the house, there's a lot that really needs doing and a lot more I'd like to do; and I've never had the money, and it's always seemed too difficult to manage, and there was always next year, and like that...
A few months ago, I realised that the actual floor was actually rotting, around and beneath the bathtub. But I am still the king of putting things off until later; and I couldn't quite think how to manage with the bathroom being ripped out and builders in & out of the house and the cats and me trying to live here despite it all. So I had this lovely notion that I'd get a friend in as project-manager and he'd get it all done the next time I was in California, while the house was at least empty of me, and I'd just come back to a fait accompli. And the loveliest thing about that notion, besides absolving me of all that scary responsibility stuff? I could still put it off till next year, didn't have to do anything actually now...
Um. No. This morning I had a closer look beneath the bath. A sensible man would probably not even go into that bathroom with the floor in this condition, let alone take a bath in there.
So. Really truly, I need to get this fixed, right now. And really truly, this is where I freeze up and become incapable. It's the kind of real life I'm really bad at, having to get strangers to come and do things in my house. I only want to run away. And right now I have many excuses, projects and deadlines and taxes all demanding my time and attention; how can I possibly take time out to phone builders and make decisions and like that...?
Eek.
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Date: 2010-06-01 12:07 am (UTC)You can do it. So far, you've kept the house from falling down and the cats alive and well-fed. You can phone builders. (Also, get a drain put into the bathroom floor. Standing water and wooden floors are not a great mix; giving the inevitable water somewhere to go sounds like a good idea to me.