Depression is flammable; who knew?
Dec. 19th, 2010 06:10 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
desperanceSo I have been in a total craven misery of depression all week, ideations of suicide, the works. And all weekend I have been in a sullen rage over stupid editorial outputtings that have made me do excruciating closework - twice over, because their stupid softwares disagree with mine, and stuff got eaten - that I shouldn't have to do at all (house style? don't speak to me about house bloody style, your readership does not care about CMOS and neither do I...), and I almost had to miss a party because of it.
And I'm still doing it, and I won't be done for hours yet - but I just noticed, I feel ever so much better. Rage burns away depression. Anyone for steroids...?
In other news, I have been confused by gelatin. Who is gelatin, what is she? I thought it came from bones and skin and connective tissues, all those products of interesting texture; but I seethed pigs' cheeks in cider last night (because I had the cider, largely, and I don't drink the stuff but I'd had to open it to soak some dried fruit with, but I didn't need it all), and left them to cool for the freezer, and this morning they were set rubber-hard. With gelatin. From cheeks, which I thought were pretty much all muscle-tissue. So I am confused now.
And I'm still doing it, and I won't be done for hours yet - but I just noticed, I feel ever so much better. Rage burns away depression. Anyone for steroids...?
In other news, I have been confused by gelatin. Who is gelatin, what is she? I thought it came from bones and skin and connective tissues, all those products of interesting texture; but I seethed pigs' cheeks in cider last night (because I had the cider, largely, and I don't drink the stuff but I'd had to open it to soak some dried fruit with, but I didn't need it all), and left them to cool for the freezer, and this morning they were set rubber-hard. With gelatin. From cheeks, which I thought were pretty much all muscle-tissue. So I am confused now.