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Day Minus One: and all the worst is behind us, except for the actual feeling rotten. Hopefully.

We lead a temperate life, those of us who go down to Mexico in search of healing. Karen had her last round of chemo today (yay!) and we've just been quietly in the apartment since. She went to bed not long after nine o'clock; now it's barely an hour later and I am prone to follow. Not all the way, for we are obliged to occupy separate beds for the next couple of weeks, until she has at least the semblance of a normal immune system again; even my poor teddy bear has been exiled from her company, despite his sterling work in keeping her safe from demons of the night.

Karen ate most of a bowl of soup for dinner, but I'm not sure how much she's actually kept down. Tomorrow she gets all her billion stem cells back again, which is Day Zero and the start of her whole new life (hereinafter she gets to celebrate two birthdays a year, and who could deny her that?), but mostly she's just going to be feeling dreadful and not at all like partying.

Indeed, there's not going to be any partying for a while. She'll be in neutropenia, where she hasn't enough white blood cells to fight off infection; she stays in the apartment and eats astronaut food, wears a mask, doesn't get to kiss me. People say that Netflix is her friend, but tonight she was too tired to watch TV, and the fatigue is likely to get worse rather than the other thing. I have no idea; we'll find out. And my own prospects likewise: I don't know how I'll get through these next weeks, for it all depends on her. But at least the worst of the treatment days are behind us. I'm seeking comfort in that. And going to bed as soon as I finish this bottle. My doctor was rather shocked to be told that I drank half a bottle of wine a day; let nobody tell her that these days it's a bottle and a half at least. At least. It's easier to be accurate, when Karen's not drinking at all; but it's harder to be abstemious, when there really isn't that much else to do. Wine helps, y'know? Of course you know. Who do I imagine I'm talking to?

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Date: 2017-10-21 03:23 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sovay
If hugs from the internet help, *hugs*, and if not, strength to your arm.

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Date: 2017-10-21 03:28 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rachelmanija
If ever there was a time for wine, it's now.

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Date: 2017-10-23 03:54 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] larryhammer
This.

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Date: 2017-10-21 04:41 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] rosefox
Here's hope-hope-hoping!

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Date: 2017-10-21 09:35 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] history_monk
Seconded!

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Date: 2017-10-21 05:07 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] the_rck
Hoping for the best, for everything working spectacularly.

If such a thing appeals I've seen people post requests here for comments about what's good in their lives or for links to baby animal pictures or for discussion of topics of potential interest with an eye toward discussion. It can be a way to feel less alone.

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Date: 2017-10-22 07:00 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] swan_tower
I would be delighted to provide such things. Kyle surfs Reddit and provides me with a curated collection of the Very Best Cat Links daily.

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Date: 2017-10-21 11:13 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] muninnhuginn
Two birthdays--why not? It shouldn't be reserved for monarchs.

Best wishes for you both.

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Date: 2017-10-21 10:39 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] al_zorra
Wine, books, netflix, food and eventually writing again are your friends. After a while, one hopes that at least the books and netflix will be Karen's friends again too.

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Date: 2017-10-22 05:09 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] galeni
Hugs. Waiting sucks.

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