The internet is for repining, redux
Jul. 14th, 2012 12:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
desperanceWell, damn. I have been rejected. Twice.
It's nothing, of course. If you submit on spec, especially to markets that don't know you, of course you'll be rejected. Longevity bestows no immunity.
And yet, and yet. It feels ... symptomatic. I just passed the thirty-fifth anniversary of the day I sold my first story, and I really do feel like I'm starting from scratch with it all to do again. And not working, that too: the odd rejectable story, a few bare beginnings for longer works, nothing with any weight to it. And everything on spec, of course, as though my whole career had been left behind with everything else, alien and meaningless here.
I guess I'm just not in a good way today. This too should pass - but it needs to. And I used to say "shall".
It's nothing, of course. If you submit on spec, especially to markets that don't know you, of course you'll be rejected. Longevity bestows no immunity.
And yet, and yet. It feels ... symptomatic. I just passed the thirty-fifth anniversary of the day I sold my first story, and I really do feel like I'm starting from scratch with it all to do again. And not working, that too: the odd rejectable story, a few bare beginnings for longer works, nothing with any weight to it. And everything on spec, of course, as though my whole career had been left behind with everything else, alien and meaningless here.
I guess I'm just not in a good way today. This too should pass - but it needs to. And I used to say "shall".