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In which I have a day
Apr. 15th, 2014 06:17 pmTo nobody's surprise (I am sure), I'm not sleeping so well at the moment. Which means I wake dreamsick, to a bad and scary world; which means I start every day very tense, very anxious, very depressed. I have a twitch in my fingers, and I'm scared of the mail and I'm scared of the phone and nothing I do is has any worth or value.
It does get better, though, in a regular progression through the day: as there is less ahead that I have to do, and the time of first alcohol grows closer. Alcohol makes everything better. Evenings are totally my favourite part of the day. Dinner done, wife beside me, TV and wine and chocolate and cats. What could be nicer?
My takeaway from this - obviously! - is that I should start earlier and drink more. *nods*
In other news, it is barely any time at all since I wasboasting posting about the Le Creuset casserole that I've had for thirty years and brought over with me and expected to go on using for the rest of my etc. Sic transit glorious casserole: in the last week I've managed to burn food so solidly onto the enamel that I cannot shift it (without, curiously, having burned the dinner) and crack the lid by dropping it onto concrete. Standing much in need of both retail therapy and a large casserole dish, I have bought me a new one (in a one-day sale at Macy's, fifty bucks for a six-quart enamel cast-iron dish - which is probably more or less what I paid for the Le Creuset, come to think). I have brought it home on the firm understanding that its lifespan shall be measured in human generations, and not be less than one.
And as this is the third post I have made today with the firm intention of deleting it, I shall not do that. One last point, though: is it actually possible, reasonable or right to say "increasingly less"? I had an example from actual internal monologue of me, but that was hours ago and it has slipped my mind. But I thought it - not "increasingly less sophisticated" or "increasingly less subtle", but of that ilk - and then I thought "Wait, can I actually even think that, or do I need to rephrase my thinking?" And I don't know, so tell me, O internets.
It does get better, though, in a regular progression through the day: as there is less ahead that I have to do, and the time of first alcohol grows closer. Alcohol makes everything better. Evenings are totally my favourite part of the day. Dinner done, wife beside me, TV and wine and chocolate and cats. What could be nicer?
My takeaway from this - obviously! - is that I should start earlier and drink more. *nods*
In other news, it is barely any time at all since I was
And as this is the third post I have made today with the firm intention of deleting it, I shall not do that. One last point, though: is it actually possible, reasonable or right to say "increasingly less"? I had an example from actual internal monologue of me, but that was hours ago and it has slipped my mind. But I thought it - not "increasingly less sophisticated" or "increasingly less subtle", but of that ilk - and then I thought "Wait, can I actually even think that, or do I need to rephrase my thinking?" And I don't know, so tell me, O internets.