Catch how many?

[desperance]

A wiser man than I would have figured out before this that if he feels this crap about himself at this time of year, it might be no bad thing to turn on his SAD light.

Trouble is, feeling this crap about myself? I'm not going to do that, there's no point. Either I'm not worth it or else I'm delusional, imagining that it could conceivably make a difference. You choose. I'm unreliable.